Covenant...
The word just sends a shudder down my spine. Stanley spoke on the old covenant and the new covenant today. When I read about how God was so faithful, so generous and so detailed with his covenant with Abraham, it just made me so ashamed of the 1 year covenant I made last year. I was supposed to stay single for the whole year. I did complete the covenant but it was in what you might call a messy way of doing it. There were 3 occasions where I thought I could have handled things in a better way. Of course, its no use crying over spilt milk but it just makes me shudder at how perfect God is. There's just no comparison.

I think I woke up on the wrong side of bed this morning. I was tired out by the full day on Saturday, so I didn't make it for prayer. Barely made it for worship either. I couldn't concentrate till the last song. Everyone was worshipping in full force already but I was barely stepping in. I find days like this really weird. Its as if I'm satisfied but at the same time there's something I'm missing. Yes, some might nail it down to my desire to have someone by my side. Someone to walk God's path with me. But I'm beginning to think that it might be something deeper. Something not so obvious.

Dear God, what am I missing? Why this listlessness? You said that your commands are not a burden. You said I have overcome the world. You said I'm a new creation. Why is it I still yearn for the old ways? On one hand desiring to do those things, on the other hand not being able to do it because I don't want to do anything wrong. God, teach me to be like Paul. To be satisfied and content in this situation. This is a lesson that should have been completed long ago. It all boils down to selfish discontent.
You have overcome my problems, Lord. So help me not to get dragged back into them. Help me focus on and love others the way you loved them. Amen.

::: Verse of the Day :::
This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.
| 1 John 5:3 |